Coming to Thailand was the most overwhelming experience I have ever had. I had never really been out of my comfort zone. I had always been surrounded by friends, family and those that I love. I had never travelled to a foreign country. I had never been on my own and alone. Put all of these things together and I found myself completely out of my element.
It took me a long time to get accustomed to Bangkok and its quick, crowded and crazy lifestyle. Once I was used to that, I was thrown into the little town of Lang Suan, a town where only 5-6 people are fluent in English, my bathroom was sans sink and flushing toilet, and the sounds of the train tracks 20 meters away and crowing roosters kept me awake all night.
Two months later, I was comfortable. I loved my life in my little town. I was used to the trains passing all through the night. The roosters were now comforting and were a sign that I was at home. My transition to my life in Thailand had taken a few months, but I had done it. I had battled through heartache, solitude, and fear and I had come out on top.
Then I went home…
I slept in my bed. I took a hot shower for the first time in months. I ate food I had been dreaming about. I was able to use my iPhone features again. I called. I texted. I drove my car. I listened to the radio. I watched TV. I hugged my dogs. I saw my most amazing friends. And most importantly I spent a lot of time with my parents.
I became so comfortable at home, that even though I had just left “home” in Thailand, I was once again apprehensive to go back. I definitely hadn’t foreseen that this would be so difficult. That it would be hard to go back to a place where I was already acclimated and happy. Where I had friends. A paradise. A vacation spot. A place where I could travel to tropical islands on the weekends and attempt to speak a foreign language.
I found myself wanting these next few months to go by quickly just so I could be back home again.
Then I went home…Thailand home. And it fits too. I know this is where I need to be for the next few months. Home rejuvenated me. It helped me close the book on certain aspects of my life and I am so glad that I had the opportunity to go. It inspired me to go out and do more. Learn more. Experience more.
Life is full of these transitions. Once one chapter is over, another one starts right up and we have to adjust. We have to start anew. We have to believe that we are on the right path and we will be stronger because of it.